It doesn't matter who he is, only that he needs help.

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It doesn't matter what "community" he is part of, nor who he is. He's a hacker, a father of two beautiful girls and a husband. He's being robbed of his life, and his daughters robbed of their father.

What matters is we can help. All of us - some of us (me) have been lucky enough to get help and support when we needed it most from people we didn't expect it from. To this day, I can't think about that without tears coming to my eyes. I can not imagine his pain - and I can not put myself in his shoes - it is place I dare not go.

We can help him; we can help his family. Even if only a little, and even though we know what the future will hold.

Read what he has written; help him if you can and are able.

Even if you can not help him financially; help him with words: Sometimes words are all we can pass on, but they're powerful and they mean more than you could possibly imagine. When you're in a dark and hopeless place, kind words and wishes of hope can mean the difference between retaining hope and sanity and giving up. Redesign Request For Proposals

by jesse in ,

Well, it's official - a labor of love from myself and many others - with special thanks to Andrew Kuchling for getting it over the finish line. The Python Software Foundation has officially announced a call for proposals for the redesign of the site and properties.

You can see the RFP here:

It's taken me several years of false starts, other attempts (including skunkworks attempts), political and social discussions, and the hard work of many to make this come to fruition. Now, we can only sit back and hope that we see some amazing proposals from the community and others.

I sincerely hope this will be successful, and that we will see a modern, well designed that showcases not only the language, but the vibrant, open, welcoming and active community we are all part of. 

A letter to my love, my friend, my wife.

by jesse in

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A letter to my love, my friend, my wife and my partner - Dusty:

I know it's the day before Valentines - some things can't wait just for a day.

Ten years - that's how long we've been with one another. Ten years feels like a lifetime - so much has changed - our lives altered in subtle - and not so subtle ways by the gentle currents of each other. In the time I've known you, we have both changed for the better - we compliment and act as one another's confidant, friend, partner and lovers.

"The most powerful symptom of love is a tenderness which becomes at times almost insupportable." - Victor Hugo


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We've been through our times of trial - little things like accidentally renting an apartment in a war zone (my bad!) - and much bigger things from health, to finances, to not know what we were doing or where we were going. We both know that this past year has been probably the one most filled with trials and tribulations.

We've sat across from one another not knowing what we were going to do, we've held each others hands watching our infant daughter laying in a hospital bed - I've held your hand at your bedside in watching your pain and not knowing what to do about it, except to sit there and watch your pain. We've been through a lot in ten years.

Despite the trials - we have made each other stronger. You have changed who I am in such fundamental and subtle ways, that I attribute much of who I am now, to you. You have made me happier, stronger, more empathetic - you have also given me the cherished gift of your love, your tears and support in my times of pain.

You have given me more than just your love; you gave me our first daughter Abby - who might as well be a tiny clone of myself in female form (god help us all), who despite her willfulness and strong personality makes my heart jump each time I hear her laugh, each time she runs to me and hugs me and tell me she loves me.

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Abby is almost five! Five years old! All parents gush about how smart their children are - but we both know there's something special and unique about her. There's more to her than a pushy 4.5 year old, there's something magical about her that we both see. I can not verbalize or put to words my thanks to you for her. She's a gift you've given to me.

Then there is Addison, our bubbling eight month old. What can I say about someone who greats me with a smile and a laugh whether it's five in the morning, or me just coming home from a hard day at work?

Addison is more than a gift; she's a blessing - the past year shows that even in our darkest hours, sitting there in a hospital not knowing what will happen, something watches over us. Addison's happiness and flourishing is not just due to doctors, or therapists - it's directly tied to the amazing love and care you provide to her.

Every time I look at Addison, I see an extension of you - your smile, your happiness (and when she giggles when she rams me with her walker, your sense of humor). Addison is again, a gift and blessing you've given me.

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You've given me so much; you've changed me so much. You've made me look outside of myself and think of others - you, our daughters, you've driven me to try to change the world and help as many people as I can. You've driven me to be better - a better man, a better husband, father and human.

Times change - people change. We have our hard times - we have those times when we both want to go lock ourselves in the bathroom just to get a moment of quiet. We have times when we just don't know what will come, and times when we wish what had came had not. We have persevered over the hard times we've faced until now, and those hard times we face now, we face together, as one.

You are beautiful - you always have been, you are strong - you are honest and critical. I might say half-jokingly that you're my better half some times - but you really and truly are (You are also better looking than me!).

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You, and the gifts have given me - our daughters, have given me more than a reason to just keep working, just to keep moving from day to day. You've given me a reason to truly live, to truly push myself beyond anything I could have imagined eleven years ago. You've given me a place and arms to cry in, to laugh in, and to grow in. You've given me a view of life, of living, of loving I never dreamed of having.

I know that once again we face hard times. I thought that perhaps this year might be a little easier on us - but so far, we both know it isn't, and there are probably harder times coming for us. I am sorry that I can not always give to you all the things you so richly deserve - I'd give you anything, I'd buy you anything if I could. I am sorry I don't have anything I can give you today other than my words - darn those hard times!

My gift to you is this - my expression of how much I truly value you, cherish you and how grateful I am - in spite of all the hard times - the good times, the memories, our daughters and most importantly our love. I am but a broken man, but with you I am whole.

Thank you for being who you are.

Thank you for being with me.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for letting me love you in return.


p.s. Churchill loves you too:

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PSF Grants, and some additional color

by jesse in , ,

Doug Hellmann and Mike Driscoll put up an excellent post on the Python Software Foundation blog about most of the grant-type work that the foundation performed over the 2011 year. To add some color to it - reviews and discussions about grants and awarding this comprises quite a bit of the board-level work that goes on (excluding individual committees).

You can see from the post quite a bit of the capital spent goes to support other conferences - as I've stated before, money that comes into the foundation in the forms of donations and PyCon "revenue" goes back into the system to be issued out to things like this.

This is why I am so hot to encourage grants around Porting to Python 3 - I think that the PSF can, in the next year, increase grant work for conference and outreach as well as developer work (such as porting libraries and other projects). None of these things should be solely focused on CPython alone - PyPy, Jython, etc should all be recipients of grants.

And therein lies the rub.

The PSF does not "go looking" for places to issue grants - the PyPy grant at PyCon 2011 was a bit of an aberration in that I proposed it to the board directly.

We need applications from the community! We can do things such as cover meetup fees for user groups, or help fund conferences, or development work. Jessica McKellar, I and others recently revamped the PSF grants page to hopefully provide a better outline of how grants work.

If you have more questions - feel free to ask me here or via email - the PSF's mission is happily broad, and we're here to serve and represent the community as best we can. But we do need to hear from you!